I am sure I know him
But sometimes, I can’t tell.
I am sure I understand him
But sometimes, I don’t know.
I am tired…
I just want to know him, understand him.
Can he just understand that and allow me in?
Can he just see that and not assume I only wish to think bad of him?
Do you know me at all?
What do you think of me?
Do you know if I really do love you?
Do you know if I will give a lot for you?
Do you know if I will stand by you and defend according God’s will?
Do you know if I will and want to be the woman you want to marry?
Am I so wrong that you don’t think I can ever be right?
Am I so filthy before you that you don’t consider me worthy?
Are they all better than me?
Am I just a woman who wants to marry you but does not want to submit to you?
Am I really not ideal for you?
What of picture of me have I given you?
Why do I fight so much for your love?
Was I wrong in loving you first?
Was I wrong in asking God if you are the one?
Because of you I have grown better, better than I ever thought I could be.
Not because you are perfect, but because I want to be your perfect.
Was that wrong? Is that not enough for you?
Or something is that and more and I may never be?
I think these and I don’t even know for sure if this how your heart sounds.
Oh!! how I wish I knew …
Then my heart may silently be calm and not hurt too much.