I do agree He does love me, but day by day my decisions haunt me. It lays my heart bare before me.
😥 I don’t love him. After all he did for me, I pay him back with evil. Oh wretched man that I am.
How could I be so callous? The tears I bring to his eyes everyday… The hard hearted picture I show him everyday…
Why does he still love me…. I wish to know why… Cos I don’t deserve it.
Why can’t I just love Him the same way… Am I so incapable of loving such a person?
Oh how does he see me? I want to be with my lover.. The only one who loves me in spite of everything… But. I can’t come close… Too filthy… Too dirty to come close.
How can I ever hear that still small voice.. He asked me to believe that He wants to speak with me.. But how can I when I am so wretched… How?